I am who am I suppose to be

Assalamualaikum wbt

*sigh*

Mula2 tulis entry terus mengeluh, apa kes kan Timah hari nih?
It just because sometimes I just want to be normal girl, with a normal life, such a normal friend
But I can't
It is not that I deny the fact I not feel grateful for what I have now
But sometimes I feel I'm not deserve on what owns me now..

~Silly~

Seriously, when I start contemplating about putting niqab on my face
I was invisibly destructed by the feeling
Feeling of insecure all around me
I was so afraid because I think that I might hurt others
Without even thinking of myself being hurt
Deeply..

Oh....that's hurt
Seriously!
Mind almost lost control
Body lost its soul
And spirit gone by the wind
~Phew~

Suddenly I feel something
Something deep inside
Close to me
My heart to be precise

What is my intention of wearing niqab actually??
is it because human being or God that control the human being??
Oh, that's really something you know
I return back to my deepest intention
To seek bless from the ONE
To ask forgiveness
I am too preoccupied by the beauty of human being
Without even thinking my Creator

Lame Timah..Lame!

Oh Allah
I come from You
I am here for You
and
I will return to You

Please do accept me

:)

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