Showing posts with label my heartsay today. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my heartsay today. Show all posts

Monday, February 6, 2012

I am who am I suppose to be

Assalamualaikum wbt

*sigh*

Mula2 tulis entry terus mengeluh, apa kes kan Timah hari nih?
It just because sometimes I just want to be normal girl, with a normal life, such a normal friend
But I can't
It is not that I deny the fact I not feel grateful for what I have now
But sometimes I feel I'm not deserve on what owns me now..

~Silly~

Seriously, when I start contemplating about putting niqab on my face
I was invisibly destructed by the feeling
Feeling of insecure all around me
I was so afraid because I think that I might hurt others
Without even thinking of myself being hurt
Deeply..

Oh....that's hurt
Seriously!
Mind almost lost control
Body lost its soul
And spirit gone by the wind
~Phew~

Suddenly I feel something
Something deep inside
Close to me
My heart to be precise

What is my intention of wearing niqab actually??
is it because human being or God that control the human being??
Oh, that's really something you know
I return back to my deepest intention
To seek bless from the ONE
To ask forgiveness
I am too preoccupied by the beauty of human being
Without even thinking my Creator

Lame Timah..Lame!

Oh Allah
I come from You
I am here for You
and
I will return to You

Please do accept me

:)

Anak2 saudara solat jemaah

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Mr. M

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim and Assalamualaikum

Mr. M
You stand there
Wait patiently
Smile sincerely

Mr. M
You walk gracefully
You talk politely
You act protectively

How I can feel
The blood flow through your vein
Only to protect us
The muslimahs

Why I feel guilt
When to burden you
Is like to slash my heart

Where to call you
Is the last thing we will do
For you can easily rest

But no!
Of course you will never rest
Only to worry bout us, the akhawat
We are dearly here
To say
Thank you very much
For all those brotherly love towards us
For only Allah will award
The kindness
InsyaAllah
Amiin...



Okey, enough poem
This poem I dedicate to all musyrifs out there
Full-heartedly doing their job
Without saying a word!
Whoa..
I myself
Try to put me in their shoes
Need to accompany the akhawat to go here and there
Need to wait for them
Need to follow everywhere the akhawats go
Oh please!
"Dok sanggup eden.."
Back then, I was totally hate the feeling of using musyrif
Why not,
I need to call then {kredit jalan...duit jalan...}
I need to their tambang bas, tramco dsb {duit jalan...}
I need to hold my ears for their long, long, long......talk.. aka meletiaq {masa jalan...}
Oh tak sanggup!
But to think back
How they sacrifice their time, energy and money just to see me arrive home safe and sound
Hohohohohohohohohohoho
Thats something ok.
Furthermore, there was a case where my friend and I
Nearly attacked by the psiko arabians
"Fuh..nasib ada musyrif."
My heart whisper
After that, we are really driven into using musyrif by following my PRINCIPE..
muahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Yakni...:
1. Hanya menggunakan musyrif lepas pada pukul 10 malam. Before that, we can take care ourselves
2. Hanya call 3 musyrif, kalau tiga2 tak angkat..wassalam
3. Aku hanya call musyrif yang sama ja. takkan ikut jadual bertugas musyrif yang sedia ada. jadual pun tak dapat, memang takdak maknanya kalau nak call ikut jadual.

Ha3. banyak ja kan peraturan aku nak guna musyrif? Besalah...Kalau tak sebelum ni tak guna pun. cuma baru dapat kesedaran. nuahahahahahahahahaha
Tak sedar diri dok kat tempat orang..ALmaklumla..
Lagi satu bila aku call musyrif
Ada pulak kata aku menggatal
Hai...
Sabaq banyak la cik timah oiii..
Aku nak musyrif
Bukan nak menggatal
Takat nak musyrif hensem
ABANG2 aku sepuluh kali hensem tahu?
Tolong sikit..
Jangan patahkan harapan aku yang baru nak insaf nih
Lagipun budak2 umah aku redah ja tadak musyrif
AKu ni ja kiqa skema sikit
he3

okla
Wassalam
Aku baru fasa na demam
Baru selesama segala bagai
Demamnya esok kot
Ha3
Sempat lagi ya Timah..
Syafakillah ya Timah. :)

Kanak2 girang pi hadiqah tak guna musyrif :P

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Winter break

Assalamualaikum
Semua sihat?
Muahahahahaha

Hari ini bermulalah episod berpoya2 aku dan rakan2
Yakni dah habeh exam
Tadi last paper
Anat
Pergh...
Maut tau tak?
Aku dahlah tak berapa suka paper yang membunuh jiwa raga aku tuh.
Bagi physio aku sanggup daripada mentelaah buku anat-yang-bapak-boring-gila!
Soalan dy
Memang..
Memang senang+kacang cap tangan nguan yin
Tapi......!
Haish
Jangan bagi aku hyperventilate kat dewan exam tu boleh dak?
Nasib aku nih seorang yang profesional
Segala pengetahuan bab2 menggoreng nih
memang aku impliment habeh dalam kehidupan seharian
Samada dalam dapur
tyme nak gebang bila terkantoi tak guna musyrif
dan yang paling utama ialah...


Menggoreng ketika dalam dewan peperiksaan
Aku tau!
Ni semua terror
Tak payah turun temurun punya resepi la
Confirm sedap punya!
Tapi aku rasa kan
physio aku goreng ok2 la
histo sedap rangup enak sekali almaklumlah paling senang
Biochem = HANGIT!
Anat... *sigh*

Tataula Hannan
Usaha2 dah
Sekarang tinggal tawakkal kepada Allah ja

Mohon ditabahkan hati kalau dapat result bawah tanah =P
Maut aku tyme nak dapat result nanti
Menggeletar habeh!
Haish
Sabaq jelah

Ok. 
Chammak CHALLO!

Asslamualaikum
Ketahuilah puasa sunat isnin khamis tu merupakan diet untuk kita
Percayalah :)

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Antara tuntutan Biochem atau tuntutan hati

Hari ni exam Biochem
Kelmarin dulu aku menangis tak ingat dunia
Aku tak betul
Semua jadik tak betul
Even abu aiman yakni penjaga imarah aku pun jadik mangsa ketidakbetulan aku

~Don't say it when you don't mean it~

Aku cukup pantang kalau seseorang bercakap
Tapi tengok2, dia buat drama spektra mengikut skrip tambahan oleh Khadijah Hashim
Cis! ini membuatkan segala ergosterol, cholic acid segala bagai berkecamuk dalam badan aku ni ha!
Betapa tidak berbile acidnya orang macam tu!
Puh liz!

Disebabkan anda
Anda, ya anda yang sedang membaca blog ini
Saya menjadik tunggamg langgang terbalik tungging
Serius
Saya try skype dengan kakak takboleh
Air mata dah banjir kawasan bilik ni ha
Abang pula call, kata mak nak cakap
Aku dok risau yang hayyu asyir ni bakal banjir ja

Tapi takpala
Disebabkan anda itu
Saya berubah
Ke arah yang lebih baik
~Alhamdulillah~

Ramai puji
"Cantik"
He3. Am I?
Tell me something I dunno.

Tapi lepaih tu terus rasa kena penampaq sedas
Sebab apa?
Rasa riak
Nauzubillah..
Ampunkanlah dosa hamba-Mu ini Ya ALlah
Pujian manusia tak lari ke mana

Sebenaqnya tatau nak cakap amenda
Point yang nak ditekan kat sini hanyalah
-Exam biochem hari ni extremely susah-
-Hari ini bermula fasa ketiga :) -

Apakah fasa itu?

Thursday, January 12, 2012

My sis kawen!

Dah lama rasanya nak post benda alah nih
tapi almaklumlah
sibuk,
aku bakal menteri belia dan sukan :P

Aku sekarang ada jauh dengan mak ayah
family
kawan
pakwe2 lama :P
secret admires semua segala bagai
yang jauh aku tinggalkan di malaysia sana

dan seperti biasa
external aku
diambil
dan dirobek segala isi2 dalaman
maka gambar2 pun bertaburan menjengah kotak memori
di tengah2 chaos nak exam ni jugakla
aku nak buat syahdu teringat kat umah kan...

Haish..

Tengok gambar2..
Mau tangkap leleh aku
meleleh
ngeng betui!

nasib aku ni macho, takdakla nak nangis tak tentu pasal
melainkan jika kepala aku
terantuk kat tramco
atau
buat aksi dramatik jatuh atas bas
tu kot aku reyau
sakit kot!

ok
enough merapu
ni nak cerita kak aku kawen
Alhamdulillah
I'm happy seeing her happy
as she's half of me
Once she tears
I cry
Once she's smiling
I laugh!
muahahahahaha
Only Allah knows how much I miss her

Dia menikah 2/9/2011
Walimah 3/12/2011
Malangnya tyme dy walimah
Aku plak takdak
Dok buat syahdu kot skype ja
hampeh la hannan
di manakah kemachoanmu wahai hannan? hu3

ok, silalah tgk gambaq tyme akad nikah
aku pengapit bergaya! ha3

inai yang bubuh semalaman tapi alahai..tak merah pown!

abang chikku tengah cuak tu..muahahahaha

kakakku yang cantik macam adik bongsunya ini :P

Kakak kalut nak akad, aku kalut dengan phone. okla tu. aku pm kehormat!

Bila aku nak kawen plak ni...

Wish you guys happily ever after :)

with mak ayah

ateh baru bangun tidur

one.big.family






Biras co & trading
Ok. enough for today

p/s: abang aku cakap dy nak kawen umur 30
ha..........
aku ada can nak potong dy! ha3

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Sutera kasih KITA???

In-Team

Sutera Kasih 

Kian lama terpenjara
Mencari makna cinta
Dalam ungkap kata bersulam dusta

Bila gerbang rahmat terbuka
Menjelma cinta suci
Sehalus dan selembut sutera kasih
Terbentanglah tersingkap kebenaran
Terlerailah terbenam kepalsuan
Tuhan pada-Mu ada kedamaian
Diribaan-Mu kebahagiaan
Tiada lagi rasa kesangsian di hati
Cinta Mu cinta tulus suci murni
Kasih-Mu nan abadi

Bertautlah bercambahlah cinta
Mengharum dalam jiwa
Menemukan kerinduan syahdu
Pada yang Maha Esa

Sutera kasih membelai
Membalut kelukaan itu
Sutera kasih melambai
Mengisi kekosongan pengharapan

Rela pasrahkan kehidupan
Mengharungi cabaran
Rintangan perjalanan di hadapan

Doa dan titis air mata
Mendamba sutera kasih
Agar terus bersemi selamanya

This is what Farah Hannan binti Mohamad Isa going to say:

He3. There's no meaning sutera kasih kitanya ha!
I mean sutera kasih between us
We and Him
You and I
Me and Allah

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sutera is silk. Do you ever imagine how soft silk would be?
And from this song
I can listen to that song portraying that Allah's love is something soft to steal our soul 
and dazzled by His love. 
Oh so sweet!

Silky soft brings to lovely dove
Allah's love is eternal
Allah's love is always
Allah's love is unlimited
So what you're waiting for?

Chase it before it leaves you
Only you can see it leaving
~Priceless~


Wednesday, December 28, 2011

I love to eat. Of course!

my story of the day

today I guess I'm not consuming so much food inside my body

I guess la...


Before kuliah:madu + biskut digestive + air mineral 1.5l


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Pagi: nasi goreng



In between class: bekal nasi goreng + chipsy


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Rehat: Nasi lemak



In between class(again): roti telur + chipsy


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Balik rumah: Burger mix



Makan malam: Bubur nasi



Ohlalalalalalalalala
end of story :)
Assalamualaikum

Monday, December 26, 2011

Just let the tears shed away

She runs
She keeps her pace steps steady
Until last step reach the midway of the road
She cannot run anymore
Tears drowning

~Pathetic~

Time passed very slowly.
How can people snooze up when it is quickly fly away?
She doesn't get  it clearly
About dump and being dumped

~Useless~

She cries silently in heart
How can I be so cruel?
When others are waiting for my help?
and I leave them like that...

~Mean~

For the first time in her life
Stepping her foot here
She smiles
Sincere smile carved straight from her heart

~Bliss~

Comes hell or high water
Comes good foe or bad friend
Comes hideous rainbow or beautiful rain
Comes love or hate
She will always be beside them
InsyaAllah

~Determination~

*Seriously I am very sad at this particular moment. Even I smile on the outside, tears drowning inside
I myself is pathetic...
Just let me be

I just want to sleep!

I swear after mid sem, I will sleep 24 hours!






Tuesday, December 20, 2011

I don't know why but I kinda love this song very much. :)


A Thousand Years lyrics

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything 
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, 
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday

Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a 
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought 
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

Watch here :)
Thousand years

Monday, December 12, 2011

Saya tahu saya tidak sempurna
Maka tidak perlulah menceritakan ketidaksempurnaan saya kepada orang lain ok.
It hurts..
seriously

Got this from facebook.
Soothe my heart. Thank you :|


" Siapa pun kamu pada masa lalu,
itu tidak bermakna kamu TIDAK BERHAK
untuk menjadi seorang Muslimah yang BAIK, DISAYANGI dan DIHORMATI.......


Berusaha mendidik diri menjadi Muslimah yang baik itu perlu DITERUSKAN
tanpa mengenal erti penat lelah apa lagi jemu.
Tinggalkan masa lalu yang pahit itu.
Jadikan ia satu PENGAJARAN.
BUKAN satu PENYESALAN yang berpanjangan. " .............. insyaALLAH... ;D

" Dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya, tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, melainkan kaum yang kafir." (Surah Yusuf: 87)

Thursday, December 8, 2011

The Price of Hijab

I'm sorry
I know I should post something
Poem bout my feeling
But then
Sadness take away all my spirit
Drowning in lonely ocean

My physical appearance before was like normal ordinary teenage girl
But now I'm change for good...
Everything seems like before
Baju kurung, t-shirt muslimah etc...
But the only thing change is...

My hijab

Maybe before this my hijab only tudung bawal bidang 45
And after
My hijab widen bit by bit
Until like I'm wearing today

There's always a but behind there
People not satisfy with the new way I style my hijab

At first I try to push away those insult
But then, I can only cry...

I've got no one
Except Him

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Say it when you confront

Salam dan Selamat Malam

I've got no intention on being Shakespeare tonight
So, let us just talk ok
I know my English is bad
But what do you expect my proficiency towards English
When I nearly choke down to speak Arabic in every single day here?

You know what
I hate the phrase: "Love is in the air"
For me Allah is enough, why bother?
But
I am woman
Always seek love under man
What can I do...

I am weak
Absolutely weak
Cannot restrain myself from the feeling of
To be loved and love someone

In Egypt
Taking bus to the faculty
Meeting eyes to eyes
I hardly shield my heart
Not to gaze into someone's else eyes
Cause I really love to stare into people's eyes
ooooooooooooooooo.....
This is VERY dangerous

Ordinary human being
Whom be borned with every minor flaw in my DNA
How steady my concrete be
I will always collapse

It is just because one meeeting
Everything change...


Then
I suddenly feel something
Something unease
I know what it is
But I dunno whether my act of saying it here
Will oppose the object of rationality

I just want to tell that I ...
It is wrong? Tell me, its wrong!
Before something goes WRONG!


Maybe next entry
I'll make it a poem then.
I love carving my heartsay in a rhyme names poem
Because I am Farah Hannan binti Mohamad Isa
He3

I dunno what the name of this gamek. but what did I know I snap this pic at Alex. :)
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