Impass

I see darkness
It feels inside me
Slowly penetrates the illusion
When light goes insignificant

Why?
Why bright compromising me not?
Why sun shining me no more?
Why rays are dimmer than ever?
Why? Why?

Deep inside I am touched
Barely realize
The eyes are crying

Though times fade away
Memories keep refreshing
Thou shall not forgiving
Then all pass through the heaven

People are wondering
I am contemplating
One fact
Undeniable one

I call it impasse

Sajak cinta

♥ Syair Cinta Rabi’ah Al – Adawiyah ♥.

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♥~~♥
Tuhanku, tenggelamkan aku dalam cintaMu
Hingga tak ada sesuatupun yang menggangguku dalam jumpaMu
Tuhanku, bintang-gemintang berkelap-kelip
Manusia terlena dalam buai tidur lelap
Pintu-pintu istana pun telah rapat tertutup
Tuhanku, demikian malampun berlalu
Dan inilah siang datang menjelang
Aku menjadi resah gelisah
Apakah persembahan malamku Kau Terima
Hingga aku berhak mereguk bahagia
Ataukah itu Kau Tolak, hingga aku dihimpit duka,
Demi kemahakuasaan-Mu
Inilah yang akan selalu ku lakukan
Selama Kau Beri aku kehidupan
Demi kemanusiaan-Mu,
Andai Kau Usir aku dari pintuMu
Aku tak akan pergi berlalu
Karena cintaku padaMu sepenuh kalbu

♥~~♥
Ya Allah, apa pun yang akan Engkau
Karuniakan kepadaku di dunia ini,
Berikanlah kepada musuh-musuhMu
Dan apa pun yang akan Engkau
Karuniakan kepadaku di akhirat nanti,
Berikanlah kepada sahabat-sahabatMu
Karena Engkau sendiri, cukuplah bagiku

♥~~♥

Aku mengabdi kepada Tuhan
Bukan karena takut neraka
Bukan pula karena mengharap masuk surga
Tetapi aku mengabdi,
Karena cintaku padaNya
Ya Allah, jika aku menyembahMu
Karena takut neraka, bakarlah aku di dalamnya
Dan jika aku menyembahMu
Karena mengharap surga, campakkanlah aku darinya
Tetapi, jika aku menyembahMu
Demi Engkau semata,
Janganlah Engkau enggan memperlihatkan keindahan wajahMu
Yang abadi padaku

♥~~♥
Ya Allah
Semua jerih payahku
Dan semua hasratku di antara segala
Kesenangan-kesenangan
Di dunia ini, adalah untuk mengingat Engkau
Dan di akhirat nanti, diantara segala kesenangan
Adalah untuk berjumpa denganMu
Begitu halnya dengan diriku
Seperti yang telah Kau katakana
Kini, perbuatlah seperti yang Engkau Kehendaki

♥~~♥
Aku mencintaiMu dengan dua cinta
Cinta karena diriku dan cinta karena diriMu
Cinta karena diriku, adalah keadaan senantiasa mengingatMu
Cinta karena diriMu, adalah keadaanMu mengungkapkan tabir
Hingga Engkau ku lihat
Baik untuk ini maupun untuk itu
Pujian bukanlah bagiku
BagiMu pujian untuk semua itu

♥~~♥
Buah hatiku, hanya Engkau yang kukasihi
Beri ampunlah pembuat dosa yang datang kehadiratMu
Engkaulah harapanku, kebahagiaan dan kesenanganku
Hatiku telah enggan mencintai selain dari Engkau

♥~~♥
Hatiku tenteram dan damai jika aku diam sendiri
Ketika Kekasih bersamaku
CintaNya padaku tak pernah terbagi
Dan dengan benda yang fana selalu mengujiku
Kapan dapat kurenungi keindahanNya
Dia akan menjadi mihrabku
Dan rahasiaNya menjadi kiblatku
Bila aku mati karena cinta, sebelum terpuaskan
Akan tersiksa dan lukalah aku di dunia ini
O, penawar jiwaku
Hatiku adalah santapan yang tersaji bagi mauMu
Barulah jiwaku pulih jika telah bersatu dengan Mu
O, sukacita dan nyawaku, semoga kekallah
Jiwaku, Kaulah sumber hidupku
Dan dariMu jua birahiku berasal
Dari semua benda fana di dunia ini
Dariku telah tercerah
Hasratku adalah bersatu denganMu
Melabuhkan rindu

♥~~♥
Sendiri daku bersama Cintaku
Waktu rahasia yang lebih lembut dari udara petang
Lintas dan penglihatan batin
Melimpahkan karunia atas doaku
Memahkotaiku, hingga enyahlah yang lain, sirna
Antara takjub atas keindahan dan keagunganNya
Dalam semerbak tiada tara
Aku berdiri dalam asyik-masyuk yang bisu
Ku saksikan yang datang dan pergi dalam kalbu
Lihat, dalam wajahNya
Tercampur segenap pesona dan karunia
Seluruh keindahan menyatu
Dalam wajahNya yang sempurna
Lihat Dia, yang akan berkata
“Tiada Tuhan selain Dia, dan Dialah Yang maha Mulia.”

♥~~♥
Rasa riangku, rinduku, lindunganku,
Teman, penolong dan tujuanku,
Kaulah karibku, dan rindu padaMu
Meneguhkan daku
Apa bukan padaMu aku ini merindu
O, nyawa dan sahabatku
Aku remuk di rongga bumi ini
Telah banyak karunia Kau berikan
Telah banyak..
Namun tak ku butuh pahala
Pemberian ataupun pertolongan
CintaMu semata meliput
Rindu dan bahagiaku
Ia mengalir di mata kalbuku yang dahaga
Adapun di sisiMu aku telah tiada
Kau bikin dada kerontang ini meluas hijau
Kau adalah rasa riangku
Kau tegak dalam diriku
Jika aku telah memenuhiMu
O, rindu hatiku, aku pun bahagia

Dr. Timah says:

Allah..mau nangis timah baca sajak ni.

Betapa agungnya cinta wali Allah ini kepada Penciptanya

Segala kata2 puitis hanya layak kepada Allah

Manis madu tak terucap

Apatah lagi manis kasih sayang Allah kepada kita

Insaflah...

Awak, peritnya menahan sebuah rasa ini..

Ya
Rabb..,
di
kejauhan ini aku berada kini,
di
hati terdetik rindu tiada terperi,
ingin
kuhindari namun ia makin menghampiri..,
aku
berdiam tanpa bicara,
cinta
bergolak di dalam jiwa,
di
manakah dia…bagaimanakah dia,
menanti
dirinya yang belum kunjung tiba..,
pena
menari tiada henti,
aku
menanti dan terus menanti,
di
manakah cinta yang engkau redhai,
ingin
kumiliki…ingin ku genggami..,
ya
Rahman..,
jauhilah
aku dari dia yang yang takkan pernah kumiliki,
hilangkanlah
cinta buat dirinya yang namanya tidak tertulis buat diri ini,
kuncilah
pintu hati ini andai dia yang dinanti belum aku jumpai,
kerana
inginku persembahkan rindu ini buat dia yang halal kudampingi,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
awak…,
peritnya
menahan sebuah rasa ini,
ku
biarkan airmata terus menemani,
demi
menjaga sekeping hati yang akan engkau miliki,
awak…,
semoga
Dia sentiasa melindungi,
aku
dan dirimu di perhentian ini,
bersabarlah
andai hati belum bersedia,
kerna
kelak pasti hadirnya bahagia…,
ya
Muhaimin…,
peliharalah
hatinya untukku…,
sebagaimana
aku berusaha memelihara hatiku untuknya…,
peliharalah
pandangan matanya untukku…,
sebagaimana
aku berusaha memelihara pandangan mataku untuknya…,
peliharalah
pergaulannya untukku…,
sebagaimana
aku berusaha memelihara pergaulanku untuknya…,
sesungguhnya
Engkau adalah sebaik-baik Pemelihara….
-insankerdillagilemah-
tigabelassatu’12

Karya Zahra Humaira'
Dirembat dari blog AkuIslam

Berubahlah selagi ada peluang

Assalamualaikum

Aisyahku sayang... 
Allah..Allah...Allah
betapa hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu
bahawa aku sayang kamu sahabat
Dan apa yang ku tahu
seorang sahabat tak akan sanggup
melihat sahabatnya yang lain masuk neraka


Wahai sahabat yang hatinya rindukan kasih sayang Allah
kita masih punya banyak lagi masa
untuk berkasih sayang dengan kaum berlainan jenis
aku tahu
aku juga begitu dulu
tapi ketahuilah sahabat
waktu dulu bisa menjadi pedoman untuk kita
untuk menjadi muslimah solehah pada masa hadapan


Wahai sahabat bakal penghuni syurga
Jagalah maruahmu sayang
Tutuplah auratmu 
Kerana ianya terlalu berharga buat suamimu
Yang mutlak
Yang sejati
Yang bakal mencintaimu sepenuh hati
Setulus kasihnya
Betapa dia dambakan hanya dirimu seorang untuk tatapan dia


Wahai sahabat yang kukasihi dan cintai
Andai cinta itu buta 
Pasti dunia ini kelak bakal gelap
Kelam
LAra 
Tapi tidak
Cinta itu suci
Cinta itu fitrah sayang
Jika kita mengaliri ia ke jalan yang benar
Kerana cinta itu
merupakan hadiah buat kita
Hamba Allah
Betapa Allah sayang kita kan 


Oleh itu sahabat yang diredhai dan dirahmati ALlah
Berubahlah kamu
Berubah selagi nafas di setiap helaan
Aku sayang kamu kerana Allah
Aku mahu kita berpimpinan tangan untuk ke syurga
Bukan menolak kamu ke neraka sayang
Berubahla...
Kalau kamu takut cacian insan sekeliling kamu


Jangan risau
Aku di sini
Sebagai sahabat :)


P/S:Aisyah hanyalah nama rekaan. SAhabat saya itu namanya lain.
I cry when I type this message
Because before
I was like her
But nobody had an effort to give me message or something like this
To bring me back
Its okay then
ALhamdulillah
At least
I myself get the chance of doing it
SO I send this message to her via facebook
After I give this to her
I've got no reply, no smiley, no nothing at all..
but I know..
inside her heart, there's something.
Perhaps when I go back to malaysia after this,
I'll see her at airport and come and hug me. 
How precious my dream. Doakan sahabat saya itu ya!

Bicara ini

Aku terdiam, bila terpandang

Aku terpana bila memandang

Aku menangis bila terkenang

Kerana bicara itu

Tersekat di kalbuku

tersesak dalam jiwa

Lemas dalam hati nurani!

Aku mahu lontarkan

Luahkan segala-galanya

Biar..

Biar orang cerca, maki, hina

Asal Allah ada di sisi

Asal rohani terisi

Biar kenangan lama basi..

Tapi...

Apa yang pasti

Biacara itu masih tersemat dalam hati

Kukuh tanpa ada jwa yang goyah

Sehinggalah kuluahkan

Pada masa yang mendatang..

InsyaAllah..

Doakan :)

That Woman

Her voice is creepy silent

Her song is rhythmic zekr

Her words are beautiful ayah from Al-Quran

Her melodies are lullaby

Her face is sunshine

Her eyes are mysterious

Her smile is something

Her shy is everything

She walks in peaceful pace

She talks in dazzle embrace

She marks everybody with friendly grace

She stares in blush gaze

Love in her heart 

Always be her Creator 

No one else

Until someone who braves enough 

To dive into the glory of triumph

Into the heart of someone

Someone called woman...

Gambar hiasan semata2 :P

Winter

coldness
hug me
touch me
kiss me
the air

coldness
I remember
I smile
I cry
the memory

coldness
hold me
tightly
shine me
brightly
the situation

coldness
I see
I only stand
I stand back there
the person

coldness
I smell
You across
The road
I shatter
You butter
The craziness

coldness
I freeze me
You melt me
Why bother
when its only about you and I in this crazy coldness???

Hey you

Hey you

Hey you,
I think you are kind enough
When you break my heart that rough

Hey you,
I think you're acting gentlemen
When you only think me as a woman

Hey you,
I think your face haunt my dream
When it only sign of nightmare grim

Hey you,
From this moment you dunno how much I hate you
But only I see your smile all the hate turns to love

Hey you,
Get the hell out of my life
Because you make me dive in miserable ocean..

Insecurity

I feel
Something cold around me
And yet nothing blinded my way

I feel
Everything lead to darkness
And there is no sign of brightness

I feel
Eyes are the magical weapon
Once tears pour upon

I feel
He is anywhere but there
But He is here in my heart

I feel
I feel
scared
traumatized by the past
I feel insecure all around me

Inilah caraku mencintaimu

‎~*~ Inilah caraku mencintaimu ~*~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

...
dengan tak menghubungimu,

tak juga mengirim pesan untuk menanyakan kabarmu,

dan bahkan sekedar chatting untuk menyapamu,

aku mencintaimu dengan menjauh darimu,

bukan karena aku membencimu,

namun karena aku ingin menjagamu dan menjaga diriku sendiri dari khalwat yang menjebak,

aku mencintaimu dengan menjaga diriku dan dirimu,

menjaga kesucianku dan kesucianmu,

menjaga kehormatanku dan kehormatanmu,

menjaga kebeningan hatiku dan hatimu,

ya......

Beginilah caraku mencintaimu,

mencintaimu dalam diamku,

karena diamku adalah bukti cintaku padamu..

dan sekarang,

keadaan menegurku,

sehingga dapat membantu menyadarkanku dari kesalahan yang telah aku perbuat,

meskipun pesonamu terhadapku belum pulih,

belum pulih..

aku tak bisa memungkiri,

bahwa setiap manusia pasti akan merasakan fitrahnya,

termasuk permasalahan ketertarikannya terhadap lawan jenis,

maka jika harus demikian,

untuk apa jika hati ini aku tambatkan kepada siapa yang bukan orangnya nanti,

jika memang hati ini sangat peka terhadap pengaruh diri yang memilikinya ketika hati ini salah dalam pengelolaanya,

oleh karenanya...

jika aku harus mencintai lawan jenis adalah fitrahku sebagai manusia, maka aku akan mencoba untuk mencintai siapa yang akan menikah denganku nanti,

walaupun aku belum pernah bertemu dengannya,

lantaran pasti Allah akan mempertemukanku dengannya,

sehingga usahaku yang sia-sia akan cenderung berkurang di dalam lingkup fitrahku,

Insya Allah.....

Kalau saja Allah menjadikan aku menikah dengan seorang wanita yang ditakdirkan Allah kepadaku,

maka untuk apa aku berharap dan menghabiskan waktuku kepada yang lainnya,

yang belum tentu akan menjadi istri ku kelak,

sedangkan hati ini mudah terdominasi dengan sesuatu hal yang lain,

Dan rasa ketertarikanku cukuplah akan aku tumpahkan kepada istri ku kelak..

Yaa Allah, sucikanlah hatiku hanya untuk siapa yang pantas menempatinya dengan keridhoanMu, cukup dia sajalah yang aku cintai karena aku tidak menginginkan keburukan ketika aku berbuat salah terhadap hatiku,


copaste dari fb. nice poem. . . 

Mr. Stranger

Hey you
Why you say hi
When I give you goodbye gaze?

Hey you
Why are you flirting over
When everything is covered?

Hey you
Why you smile at me
When even I am miles away?

Hey you
Why you stare at me
When I feel like to slay you?

Hey you
Why you feel like I fall to you
When I sarcastic-ly build wall around you?

Hey you
Why you think that you're handsome enough
When I feel like you're no more than my great(5x) grandfather when his oldies?

Hey you
Why you blow your breath to me
When I feel like fainting is the best meditation

Hey you
Why you show how gentlemen you are
When I feel you are less then gentle-men

Hey you
Why you keep holding your phone
When my phone-Blackberry is more upgrade than yours?

Hey you
Why are you pretending talking sweetly
When I think you are nothing more or less like street guy?

Hey you
Why are you walking like a model
When I feel like you are damaging your coordination system?

Hey you
Enough pretending
Because no one is demanding
Yet you are still
And now I am blowing your head off...

The Girl Next Door

Girl Next Door

Staring at you from distance

Smiling unnoticeable-ly

Sweet feeling pour inside

From the backyard

Listen to every step

Care not to miss one

And..

Here he comes

Walk peacefully

She is there

Nobody notice

Only one

Dazzled by the phenomenon

Sun can be bright

But his smiles do more

Only one

Hideously gaze

Intimately bonded

By the only one

She is still there

Standing 

In the altar

Only one

She would stare

The one that took her heart away

She is the girl next door

She is........

MUahahahahahahahahahaha

Smile

Smile can carve within two lines
As long as it will shine

Smile is contagious
Make someone feel prestigious

Smile brings happiness
To hide those sadness

Smile create harmonious environment
Which shine like a diamond

Smile attracts eyes
When vision running through lies

Smile is a curved lips
Downward together with the hips

Smile show love
In the presence of ivy dove

Smile remains a tale
Till the remaining breath exhaled

Smile turns dessert to pole
As long as everyone hold

Smile as long as you can smile
Cause it brings significant thousand miles
away....

Trust me :)
So let us smile always because in Islam propose us to smile.

Smile is a gift

So people out there, don't be too serious ok? Sometimes we need to cheer up, not only for us, but to affect others as well.
Ok, nytez, I heart you all. tq :)

Misery of a broken heart

Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people." (2:286)

Misery
Is still there
Floating around mysterious mars
Cannot help it
Cannot deny it
It slashes through veins
Bloodless pain is flowing unstoppable
He can just scream
Out loud
But seems that no one care
Because voiceless scream is just echoing in his heart
How hurt would it be
How he can only swallow it alone
Isolated by the circumstance
Accepting the fact written this way
It doesn't mean he's fall
But signs of He will make him stand
No matter how hard it pulls
How harsh the force
He's not regretting of falling
He just afraid of not standing back
To face the wave
Because of all incision in his heart
Only the story of misery
Misery of a broken heart
And he knows that misery won't get the best of him...

“Happiness and misery depend not on how high up or low down you are - they depend not upon these, but on the direction in which you are tending”

*Credited to Zulfahmi Mohamed. My ex-classmate. I hope you're strong enough to push away all those wrongness in your life.

I'm losing what I don't deserve

Do you know what hurts most?
Do you feel it?
Are you sure about the pain is killing our inside?
Are you throwing the joy by yourself?

It hurts a lot when finally I realize something
Realize that I am losing something that I don't deserve
Damn its true
and Damn its killing me inside!
Screaming out loud
Perhaps pain echoing out of myself
and Never come back
I don't believe in myself anymore
Because I betray it without mercy ...

The fact is written this way
Can't take back either burn into dust
What I see is darkness
DARKNESS...
No one's offering me their hand
To pick me up to the light
Nobody cares to show me their arm and let me cry on
Nobody wants to wipe away my tears
Nobody...and the fact hurts much...

and Finally I wish for nothing...
No more

The sun shines there

When I walk alone
Passing by the empty road
I can see nothingness awaiting me
But my hope is still lingering here
To reach the star is not impossible
If I am flying within the sky

Beneath the difficulty lies strength
Determination embedded in my soul
To grab the light
And if,
The road seems more devious
As if,
The spirit is not floating inside anymore
He is there
Never forget me even others don't remember

Behind every obstacle there lies endless will
When there is a will, there is always a way
How far my dream can achieve the moon
Because I know the sun is shining its light for me
And I know you are that sun
Thank you :)

I am Someone

I am someone
When I walk pass by
To look back at the dim memories
But I keep striving
Cause I know future may be bright
As I lose control
Keep blaming myself who doesn't belong here
Crying every tears in my heart
Afraid to hurt others
Heaven will never be like this
As too much pain to be attained
But I keep striving
No one cares about me
Like I care about them
Darkness floating around
Drowning in a cool flood
Gasping for breath
Struggling for dry air
Burn out my throat
My existence totally ignored
They look at me then walk away
Realize by the fact of nothing
Everything seems blurred
Being a voyager is a part of life
Me, myself and I
No one else
So I decide
I am someone

You and I

And whether ye hide your word or publish it, He certainly has (full) knowledge, of the secrets of (all) hearts.(13:67)

You and I
There I sit under the dim light
Shine by the moonlight
Sun can be bright
But there is only moon at night
Alone I fight
Together we'll be on sight
When there is nothing to fright
Only You and I

You and I
Everything I share with You
Inside and outside all for You
Because there is nothing like You
I take my heart only to You
When pain is flowing through, I turn to You
And tonight, everything is about You

You and I
Cry for the sins I make
Which nothing can break
Even by the realize that have been wake
The risk I should not take
But I blinded by the stake
And now I feel like being hacked
I regret all of my mistakes

You and I
I hope there are chances
Floating around my chest
When You are the only hope that I crave
For Your blessings is what I chase for
And perhaps...

I wonder...

It's all about You and I...
Thank You Allah :)
4.30a.m. 9 July

Thank You for give me chance to feel the air of 19th Allah

Thank You
For 19 years give me chance to inhale the deepness of air
You are there, still there, sure be there
Waiting for me
Smiling peacefully
Because I'm here from You
For You
And will return to You

Thank You
You swallow the pain just to let me see the world
You raise me up until I can conquer the mountain
You take everything on my side
You don't always say you love me but your action do it
You stay up because to see me sleeping soundly
When I cry in pain, you cry together in your heart
I know I can't do anything to pay every single thing you pour on me
Except thank you

Thank You
He who always be there for me
He who tries his best to fulfill my request
He who also cries in his heart to see me crying
He who are there to wipe away my tears
His hand never let go off my hand until the right person come and take it
He who are very serious in certain circumstances
Not to show madness but to hide his greatest love
He who borrows his arm for me to calm down
He who loves me till the end
of his life...

Thank You
They are there to guide me
They are there voluntarily being there
They are there not only because of the same blood
They are there to show how much they care
They are there to protect me against the outside world
They are there around me
Tightly bonded by the love

Thank You
For being such a good company to me
You are indeed a special person in my life
Every single person of you
Who exists in my every breath I take
The memory with all of you is indescribable
How beautiful the friendship
I will never find in other life
I love you friends

and Thank You
To you
Who you never know that you are there in my little mind
I really hope you read this,
but I know, even if you read it,
you don't know that I am describing about you
but then, still I want to say thank you
Your presence cheer my life much
Even I just can stare at you in very hideous way
but I satisfy for I can see you smiling
to show that you're happy, and I'll be happy as well
:)

Thank You all. Allah, mak, ayah, adik-beradik, friends, and him... Thank you very much. I will never pay back for what all of you did give to me.

Numb

Numb
The world is laughing at me
They acknowledge of my weakness
Like the needle penetrate into my vein
Misery is floating in head
Why should it happen this way?
I try to leave everyone blinded by the fact
And yet they reveal it through the darkness

Numb
It slays me inside and outside
Dunno how to react towards the pain
Cause it diffuse straight through the skin
It feels numb all over the body
Paralyze within seconds
Venom spreads at its best speed
Even they are chance to survive
But then, it brings no signification
Cause I can feel the cold swirling around me

Numb
Enough satisfaction to watch me die
I will stand up other time
To take every single revenge fulfilled
I will
I promise I will
You who stands at the end of the world
Get ready
Once I launch my grudges
I think no one else but darkness
Because my mind is numbed by you...

Err, I think my poem is not about killing others.